Sunday, October 18, 2009

I know I shouldn't but,

I can't help but feel sad and even envious when I find out that someone is pregnant or has just had a baby. Not envious in the sense that I wish something would happen to the person or the baby, never the bad kind of jealousy, I just wish it was me. While I'm congratulating the Mother-to-be or holding the new baby I am trying to choke back the tears. I don't know why it hurts me so badly, maybe it's the fact that I know I can't have another baby now and that my husband doesn't want another one right now. Maybe it's the fact that I wish I was the one giving the news about my BFP or cradling my new baby but I shouldn't feel that way. I am happy for the friends and family who are adding another member to their family, but I wish I was too. 


  1. Took the words right out of my mouth. Maybe when our hubbies get home we can both get pregnant and be preggo together :)

  2. It's hard, my really good friend told me that she is expecting again, and i feel that it's going to be so hard to see her get bigger and bigger and feel those little kicks and I know I will just be wishing it was me.

    that would be fun...i guess for now we will just be workout buddies and then hopefully we can be preggo buddies =]